they say that the first person you fall for will always remain in your heart. right now it only makes me sick to the stomach to think of all the wonderful things that could have been, that never were, and that i can't rewind and undo what has happened.

i try to restrain myself from thinking that i will never again find anyone like him. because something's telling me that it is an irrational thought. because there are seven billion people on this planet and there has to be at least one person out there who is willing to kiss me good night when i go to bed, and still be there when i wake up in the morning.